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As we work through Exodus and consider the questions that are asked, I’ve reflected on my own situation. Over the last 8 months I have been on an interesting, challenging journey with many highs and lows. From making the decision to leave the house and community where I have lived for the last 45 years, to finding the right property for my next few years. There have been so many forms to read, understand and complete!
Why am I moving from a place I love? Getting older and living alone in a family sized house and a little too far from my family gave me the push.
What have I let go of? The decluttering of my life is a challenging process. Goods and chattels! I’ve given away, sold and ditched a lot that there just won’t be space for and I really don’t need. I’m sure I still have too much but time will tell. But what about all the memories and memory joggers? I hope and pray my memories stay with me, there’s a lot that has been and needs to be left with God, that’s a healing ongoing process through prayer and contemplation. I’ve gradually reduced and handed over the various responsibilities that I’ve been able to do in the church and neighbourhood, it’s been good to be able to help others but right now I’m focussing on myself and that’s ok.
What am I leaving behind? A community rich in loving, caring friends who have shared mine and my family’s journey throughout those years. Friends who I’ve laughed and cried with, those who have dropped everything to come to help me in an hour of need. Many cuppas sharing our concerns and joys, watching families grow up, baby sitting for each other, sharing meals, theatre visits, walks, and shopping trips.
What has the church meant to me? I found a deep sense of peace and love when I finally accepted that God loves me just as I am, I don’t have to tick any spiritual boxes, fulfil any religious tasks, know the Bible inside out, be a super human mother, housewife, teacher, church worker, sportsman, I am just loved unconditionally. That gives me the confidence and encouragement to try things. God is a loving Father who wants me to be the best I can be so I’ve had a go! Each day I thank God for all that I have, all that I am, all life’s rich tapestry of experiences. I take those experiences with me.
What’s next? Establish myself in a smaller house that’s close to my family and a whole new neighbourhood, community and church. Time to support my family in their busy lives as the children grow and develop. Travel to new and interesting places. Maintain valuable friendships with those I’ve left behind.
Calverley will always hold a special place in my heart, and I’m sad to leave.
I hope you value this place as much as I have. God be with you always,
Sylvia Cooke |
